This night in cold moonlight earth rises up clouds float down ghosts walk the margin. Old ones sing now shall be then older ones still sing then shall be once to wolf and coyote. In this season of north winds sun’s heat barren spirits rise up dreams descend man lies interspersed. Women sing we are bearers men sing we are sowers.
Yesterday is but a shadow and tomorrow an illusion. Do not wallow in the mud of attempted memory, do not sink in the mire of deluded anticipation. Stop, listen to the sun and the moon sing of the Dharma, hear the silence it brings for you are alive in this moment, and there is no other moment in which you can live.
A reflection on Case 3 of the Blue Cliff Record (Hekiganroku 碧巌録)
Across Bedford Avenue in the fourth floor window the antique bird print is bathed in the light of a Chinese ginger jar lamp. Her shadow dances across the wall, arms wrapped tightly around herself in the sway of Terpsichore singing her melancholy song. I hear only the cacophony of the drunk on the corner braying to the moon and the rumble of the lorry on Tottenham Court Road.
In yet another sign of age I realize I simply cannot enjoy much of today’s music. I know it has merit, I know most love it, sales and downloads don’t lie, but it doesn’t work for me. I want the music of the 80s, the 70s, or even the late 60s, but with, dare I say it, a bit of a twist. I want the older music to come from a different room of the house the older the farther from my ears, as though distance and time were intimately related, and when one song piques my interest I can walk back into my youth to hear it more clearly as I did when it first touched my ears.
Why is it that so many songwriters have an intense need, a desire really, to leave the listener wondering in frustration at how the story ends.
I can forgive Leonard Cohen for his Hallelujah for no one is quite certain how many verses he wrote, although more than 80 seems to be the number, so perhaps a missing one or ten concludes the various stories the song has told through time.
And Harry Chapin did give us an ending of sorts to Taxi, in his song Sequel, but even there he left the door ajar, but he died too young, so any subsequent sequels went to the grave with him.
And one offender I cannot yet forgive is the Ode to Billy Joe, since really, he’s gone but that wasn’t enough for brother, and you’d think he would have a name since he married Becky Thompson, and what kind of store did they buy, why in Tupelo, was she from there, and what, if anything, do we know about her?
This morning as the bell signaled the end of morning zazen the whistling ducks took up their song, circling the wetland as if inviting me to photograph them.
They quickly grew bored waiting and flew off to a place I do not know, can not imagine.
Perhaps they will return this afternoon, circle in a duck like pose as I capture them with the long lens, and this will satisfy them for another day, but perhaps they will not return and punish me again for my morning absence.
Arising into night the departing sun tangos away with its cloud, memories soon forgotten.
Other dancers take the stage, now a romance, now a war dance, feathers raised in prayer to unseen gods.
Night will soon bring its curtain across this stage, the avian casts’ final bows taken the theater will darken, awaiting another performance, a new script tomorrow, but for this solitary moment of frozen grace, it is we who write the conversation, our lines sung by actors who know only nature’s unrelenting song.
We took private dance lessons, she already versed in the dance, a natural grace and flow, and I moving with seemingly fused hips, unsteady, bordering on clumsy.
As we went on, it began to come to me, never graceful, but no longer embarassing to myself nor her, and the teacher said I could be a natural, a kind and gentle lie.
At our wedding we glided around the floor, a slower Eastern swing, and when the song ended, I smiled knowing that I had found the one